Depression
Several years ago, my doctor diagnosed me with depression. Since then, I have been taking medication for developmental disorders and antidepressants.
At the beginning of the treatment with antidepressants, I was in a very bad state and could not do anything at all.
I couldn't draw for many months. Or so I thought, but in fact it was only a month. That seemed like a very long time to me, and if you look at me now, you can see what a long time it was that I couldn't paint for a month XD
At the same time, it became very difficult for me to do anything by myself. I was never good at going out, but now I can't do it alone at all. Even with my husband, I could only go to the nearest convenience store once a month.
I tried various methods, but I could not go out regularly.
And COVID
Then COVID came. I became more and more afraid to go outside.
But at the same time, when I went out to the hospital, which I had to visit regularly, my body became more and more stressed. I felt my physical strength waning and became anxious.
IRL stream
That's when I saw someone who was streaming IRL, and I thought, it looks like I'm having fun walking with everyone! I thought. Then, on a whim, let's go to the park in the morning and press the deliver button. What will happen?
It turned out to be a very, very pleasant walk for me!
Changing many things of my life
I haven't done it 10 times yet, but little by little it has changed my life.
I used to hate taking a bath, so much so that there were weeks when I didn't take a bath, but now I take a bath every day or two and wash my head twice a week. I used to hate taking care of my skin, but now I wash my face every day and put on lotion. I started to wash my face and put on lotion every day. I also started to set detailed goals for my walks, which made me feel more confident.
IRL stream steps
- I went out by myself and came back by myself.
- Went shopping at a convenience store by myself.
- To walk 10,000 steps. Sometimes I can't reach them, but in the beginning I had a lot of muscle pain. Now I don't get muscle aches anymore.
- Bought paper at an art supply store.
- Got on the bus by myself.
- Completed procedures at the police station alone.
By completing each goal one by one, I feel that I am gaining confidence little by little.
My next goal is to
- Take the train one stop by myself.
- To go to the shop and ask something good to the staff.
- To go to karaoke shop.
- To take the train to Shibuya to go to Ikea.
- To take the train to Shinjuku to go to the biggest art material shop.
And the final big goal is
- To ride the Shinkansen (a kind of bullet train) or airplane by myself and stay overnight somewhere!
And, I hope you enjoy my IRL stream, e-baby adventures in the future, too!
https://www.twitch.tv/lita426t
Tachibana Lita
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